| The answer that could never be found |
[Apr. 20th, 2007|12:20 am] |
One of you doesn't know it, but I'm ignoring you. You'll probly never figure it out either since we never talk that much anyways. Lets face it though, you brought it on yourself and provoked me. But if you ever did happen to come up to me in school I would just walk away. I've embraced my bitchy side lately and I havent decided yet how much better it is than coming off as a pushover.
Its wierd how things happen that you think are momentous and then theyre not, but when really momentous things happen you realize dont realize what a big deal they are.
Its also wierd how fast relationships change. We havent even graduated yet and everyones already acting wierd. Including me.
Theres not a lot of individual stuff I'm going to miss, but I'm going to miss it all together.
"Maybe that's all that family really is. A group of people who all miss the same imaginary place."
This is the golden time bitches. Get over it. |
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[Mar. 4th, 2007|11:12 am] |
last night i made a very important decision concerning the next 5/6 months of my life. it probably wont work. but w/e i'm gonna pretend cuz otherwise i'll go crazy. epiphanies are good things.
in other annoying news, postsecret is FINALLY coming within a 4 hour drive of charlotte, but, of course, is going to uga and is not open to the public. sweet.
when i get to wash u i'm requesting an invite. seriously, that postsecret guy is like my hero.
i dunwanna write this essayyyyyyy |
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| cryptic |
[Mar. 1st, 2007|07:31 pm] |
tonight i did something really stupid
that maybe wont actually turn out to be stupid
but 99.999999% will
and it's making me really nervous
but i'm still going to go through with it
and i'm glad i am
which is confusing
(don't worry though, it's not illegal... that I know of...)
i'm thinking about making this private since that fact that i dont know who's reading it has stopped me from writing anything anymore. does anyone care? |
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| i am a winner!!! (on ebay) |
[Feb. 21st, 2007|08:34 pm] |
reminder: openning your bank statements is a good idea because SOMETIMES they say that they're going to deactivate your card and then you end up standing in the middle of harris teeter with a gallon of milk and no money.
also: check with your friends to make sure they're on the same page as you cuz SOMETIMES they're not and your oblivious and stuff goes to shit and you have NO idea. |
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| dont read into this or get too excited |
[Feb. 13th, 2007|11:35 pm] |
but i am totally having a kates-character-in-guernica moment.
and it sucks.
cuz i don't want to be.
just to be clear.
i really don't want to be.
so i guess it isn't exactly like her character.
i have a love hate relationship with valentines day.
that seems too normal.
i'll work on some other outlook. |
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| well unc may have had bill nye |
[Feb. 12th, 2007|10:46 pm] |
but did you have Dr. Sue the sex lady
and a free jibbs concert...
that's right bitches
on the other hand one of their students got attacked today in her dorm so i'm pretty sure i'm going to die next year...
on the other hand if stuff goes bad i have a fallback plan: Muse (any takers)
oh, and Harry Potter has a 10 minute nude love(ish) scene in EQUUS which opens soon in London. yay for growing up. |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 10th, 2007|12:03 am] |
Reason number 10 million why Wash U is the best college ever (that's right. i said it. feel free to leave nasty comments):
Bill Nye the Science Guy came to speak today |
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| it's called passion |
[Feb. 9th, 2007|12:30 am] |
punch me. i think it'd hurt less.
not that anything hurts much anymore.
-the blue eyed voice |
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| Today I |
[Feb. 7th, 2007|07:36 pm] |
1) Broke a nail
Jumping on my bed
Trying to stick glowing stars too my ceiling
I got too enthusiastic
Luckily I was gonna go get them redone tomorrow anyways
It was def worth it
Def
2) Got a postcard
From UPS
Saying I had to find my way out to their warehouse in the middle of nowhere
To pick up a package they tried to deliver to me
...last November
3) Agreed to wake up an hour early tomorrow
To go to a cycling class for crazy people
With music way too loud for 6am
I am going to seriously regret it |
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| I L.O.V.E. MY JOB |
[Feb. 5th, 2007|10:10 pm] |
I got a raiiiiise
Then I worked tonight in my PJs with the TV in the background and got a shitload done and felt accomplished
Plus, I get to be surrounded by pretty stuff
Be very jealous. |
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| Just rip off the fucking bandaid! |
[Jan. 30th, 2007|11:12 pm] |
-My car now has a gorgeous Wash U decal on it
-The play is almost over
-I've been talking to some really cool Wash U people on IM and facebook about actually things... like that matter... and are intellectual but fun.
-My sonnets in english kicked serious sonnet ass
-Postsecret is not coming to NC before the summer at least. They are going to St Louis though, which means they wont come again when i'm there. sweet.
-I'm like one of the giant balloons that's at the point where there's only enough helium so that it floats around and doesn't fall but wont rise anymore. dammit.
oooh! i want one of those helium tanks and then i can make my voice make funny noises.
-I thought of something intellectual to say on here, but then i realized this is more of a joke to me than a sounding board by now. that's kinda sad. i know why though. |
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| I love you!... not sure who that's directed at... anyways... |
[Jan. 27th, 2007|11:52 pm] |
Today I:
-woke up in my cousins safe bed in her safe house and felt really really safe
-got the postsecret books in the mail
-almost beat my dad at scrabble
-had an amazing fancy dinner with awesome friends who decided to see if the waiter would bring me a "divorce" cake while I was in the bathroom
-sat around and did nothing
-was told that I seemed like I had my life together... and I laughed
Life is good. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 25th, 2007|09:21 pm] |
The next spring semester of CITYterm started today. I am soooooo jealous.
Unfortunately, people change. You wish they could apologize, but they can't.
One thing that is true: I am not living in the past. Problem is, even I'll admit it's not the present. And it's definitely not the future. Then where the fuck am I? 5th dimension bitches.
Daaaaaamn. I got myself all lost again.
B-day idea: gps system of life... |
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| catchup: Things that make my life complete right now |
[Jan. 21st, 2007|10:49 pm] |
-it's actually kind of amazing how quickly 2 weeks go by, and then are followed by 2 of the slowest weeks of my life. at least it evens out.
-i want to quit. but i wont. because i can't do that to you two. bleh. at least i get to still feel like i am a good friend (even if that is a shitty excuse for not quitting). i'm flipping shit at someone when it's over though.
-i ordered the rest of the postsecret books today
-chapel hill was the shit. it made me very happy for multiple reasons
-I GET TO SEE ANNE TOMORROW and then I get to talk about CITYterm to people
-i am officially having a CITYterm roomie reunion in NYC in less than a month and the three of us will probably not have time to sleep. but we will dance and cook and talk and chill and party
-the summer plans are official that i am going to barcelona and florence and paris and berlin and most likely prague and vienna for a month
-in may i get to go to a really cool wedding in boston (or maybe DC. i dunno.) with really cool people that make me happiest in the world that I didn't think i was going to get to go to
-i managed to drive home in the ice without getting into a wreck. which, lets face it, is an accomplishment
-i have plan to keep myself very busy right up until when i leave for college, which is good, cuz i hate being bored. except i dont hate anyways.
-oh, and did i mention that tomorrow i get to chill with anne, one of the smartest and coolest people i know
KICKASS |
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[Jan. 17th, 2007|10:58 pm] |
ok. so my environmental science teacher is really getting to me. i'm actually considering becoming a semivegan... like organic vegan... like i only eat animal products that come from animals raised on real farms, not industrial farms... which means mostly vegan with other stuff as a special treat. he's already got me sworn off of all meat except some chicken and turkey.
quick. somebody talk me out of it. |
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| finally. another bitchy post. you know you missed it. |
[Jan. 16th, 2007|07:13 pm] |
just when you start thinking youre making the tiniest bit of of progress... it turns out you have no idea. and people are... assholes.
whatever. i'm probly kinda schitzo. half the time i love my life and can't get enough for no reason, and then i think people suck and just want to run away.
at least Celina made me happy today and said she still loves me even when i'm a bitch. i like that some people i can count on to be honest and actually be there for me when i need them.
this kinda feels like a bomb waiting to go off that i really dont want to go off but has to eventually cuz i wont be able to stop it forever. and then it will hurt a whole hell of a lot and i'll hate myself for not having the strength to just keep holding it back. but in the end it'll be like a big relief that i dont have to worry about the bomb anymore. but then i dont know what i'll worry about. and i kinda think the bomb keeps me balanced and entertained so i dont get into more trouble. wow. that's a fucked up metaphor. |
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[Jan. 8th, 2007|08:08 pm] |
ok, so over break i babysat this baby for like 4 hours (but really like 30 min cuz i just put her to bed) and pretty much was probably the shittiest babysitter ever and pretty much figured i was a failure at taking care of children and would never be hired by anyone ever again because they would all find out how generally sucky i am with kids. seriously, i had to call someone to figure out how to get the onsie over the kids head. but kids are wierd anyways. i mean, they are cute from far away, but interacting with them is a bitch. i have no patience... i once (accidentally... really) locked a 6 year old in his room using a string contraption and then couldnt get the knot untied. they never called me to babysit again.
the point is, i thought i was gonna be a failure at taking care of kids forever but then, tonight- THEY CALLED ME AGAIN!!!!
i'm makin money, i'm makin money...
p.s. still never trust me with any kid. ever. |
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| so many people are going to carolina... |
[Jan. 7th, 2007|01:13 am] |
congratulations.
today i watched the entire last season of Friends.
a hundred times later it never fails to make me cry.
i'm a sucker for things ending.
So torn between dragging it out and just making it end.
it's been like 3 years and i still miss them. awwwww. |
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| After a hiatis. Back to school. |
[Jan. 2nd, 2007|09:18 pm] |
and the beat goes on
i am officially ready for summer break already
emotionally. mentally.
senioritis.
moved on.
might as well sleep for the next 5 months.
i miss... |
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